The long talk straightened my thoughts out.
I guess I should not put it aside, and try to get over it. It was a mishap. What lingered was the guilt. Maybe this is one of those hurdles we all have to conquer every once in a while.
Deep down, I always wished I had a proper big sister to be able to share my secrets with and just really rant and rave. She would give me advices and then try to help me solve my problems. However, I guessed this would remain as it is. Just a dream.
On a sidenote, Alan is leaving us for the music conservatory. I will miss you mann. Stay in contact yeah?
Once again, sorry.